I guess i just dont want to be left behind. i feel like everyone is moving on and im stuck in the same old rut. Kinda sucks how things turn out. I was thinkin last night what if my mum n dad hadnt of split. and he woulda been a decent dad like some of my friends have instead if an abusive jerk then maybe i wouldnt feel so stressed all the time. i wouldnt feel i have to look after everyone.
Nobody even wants my help. Nobody even needs me.
Sometimes i wonder why am i still here.
Then i remember its cause in too chicken to move on.
I guess i want an easy life. i kno nobody has it easy. i hear about peoples problems all the time. but somehow they seem to cope.
I feel like im gna snap from the pressure of mine.
Maybe its cause im not strong enough.
Its my fault anyway. As usual.