Sick of tryin so hard all the time. I Feel like im waring against my mind my surroundings amd everytime something comes along t make me happh its just snatched away. do u know how that feels? Inside my head its just sayin shut up katie ur stupid. why would u deserve to be happy? uve done nothin but screw ppl up. U cant change that cause u wont change you will always be a failure.
i just cant stop it. sometimes i think it would be better if i just left everyone alone. just stop carin stop tryin. give up on everyone and everything. like everyone has done to me. i cant do this anymore i feel like its just time t give up. its time to just stop tryin. time t lie back and just sleep. let people think what they want. it wont matter soon. do what they want i wont know. and .. lets face it they wont care.